Hello Swami,

Hope you are doing well. I was hoping to speak to someone from the ----------------. I found and read a number of articles online from the Swami ----------- website and believe you can help me. My name is Kartik Saddi. I live and grew up in New Jersey, in the United States of America.

I am 28 years old. I use to work as a software engineer however I have not worked in around three years because I am involved in a certain situation. I have read a number of Hindu texts, such as the Upanishads, the Bhagavad Gita ( with Sankaracharya and Abhinavaguptas commentaries), large parts of the Mahabharat, parts of certain Puranas, a few parts of Yoga Vasishta, Patanjali Yoga Sutras etc. I practice meditation for half an hour to up to 2 hours for 5 days a week. I also work on practicing karma yoga.

I don’t think you can help me without me explaining the unique situation I am involved in. I will explain it now. I will leave out some parts for the sake of brevity. If I could summarize it I would say reincarnation is real, and conflicts such as the Islamic invasions of India and the British/Christian colonization of India are continuing in their own way today.

I graduated college in 2018 where I studied computer science. I then lived and worked in New York for around 2 years, went back home to my parents house for a year and then in 2021 I moved to a city in New Jersey called Hoboken. Things really started when I lived in Hoboken. When I lived in Hoboken I was no longer working at an office I was working on starting my own business. For a couple days a week I would walk along the Main Street of Hoboken to go to the gym and exercise. I would also walk along the Main Street of Hoboken to get food sometimes.

Around August 2021 one day while walking along the Main Street of Hoboken I saw an acquaintance of mine from high school. I said hello to him. In the coming days as I was walking along the Main Street I felt like people were watching me. I would switch between staying at my apartment in Hoboken and living in my parents apartment elsewhere. In September 2021 at some point I was at my parents apartment. I had noticed some strange occurrences in Hoboken up to this point. I went back to my apartment in Hoboken and that is when it all happened. My mom dropped me off at the edge of Hoboken as some roads were closed. As I was walking I saw what looked like an extended relative of mine. I yelled out his name he simply looked down and said “what” or “no”. I continued walking and in the back streets of Hoboken I saw people show up. Some people I used to see at the gym I went to back in my hometown were in a car driving around and yelled at me. A girl I went to college with who doesn’t live in Hoboken walked around a corner past me without saying anything. A year later when I messaged her on social media and asked if she remembered seeing me she said yes. People were opening doors of apartments I was walking past and making hand signals to me. When I got to my apartment on the neighboring apartments people were sitting on the outside steps looking at me.

This was the beginning of what happened which continued for about five days in September 2021. I walked into my apartment. Later in the day I left my apartment and people standing on street corners were whispering certain locations to me. I went there but nothing happened. The whole town was alive with these types of experiences. Another day I left my apartment and went to the Main Street of Hoboken to get food. As I was walking to the Main Street I had to cross many streets to get there. I noticed cars driving aggressively trying to run me over. I got to the Main Street and crowds of people were walking at me. They were trying to push me off of the sidewalk and onto the street where I could get run over. I got in arguments with a few people that got aggressive with me. I also saw a girl from my high school and college that seemed to be on my side. There were people trying to hurt me but I also saw people that were on my side.

When I went to restaurants on the Main Street of Hoboken people that were involved in what was going on were behind the counter. In one incident I stopped at a convenience store. There was 4 or 5 people behind the counter as opposed to the normal two. Some of them whispered to me a license plate. Later that day I was at my apartment and I went outside. A car with that license plate was parked outside and a couple speaking a foreign language were walking to it. I asked them what language they were speaking and they said Hebrew. We got in a slight argument, I asked them what they were doing here without a parking permit. At the same time to the left of my apartment a black SUV was parked. As I was arguing the suv rolled down its window and the man inside smiled at me. I could tell he was on my side and was watching over my apartment.

Incidents liked this continued for around 5 days. The amount of people involved was incredible. I won’t go into further detail for the sake of brevity.

So that was what happened when I was living in Hoboken in September 2021. After a few days I stopped going outside as much and spent more time at my parents apartment. The people receded and the occurrences stopped. However new things, related to memory, started happening.

In around November in 2021 I was staying at my apartment. I started remembering things I had never remembered before. This was truly incredible and I wondered how it could have happened. In 2014 I went to study in London one summer. I began remembering a conversation at the dorm I stayed at there. The conversation was between me and a group of girls from the American South that were also studying there. We got into a debate about Hinduism vs Christianity.

Then, later while I was living in Hoboken, I started remembering all of this time from high school that I had never remembered before. I remembered being in a classroom with a teacher I had known acting and speaking in an aggressive manner. He tried convincing me of the Aryan Invasion Theory.

Sometimes it would be a classroom of me and other Hindu students. Other times it would be the teacher and me and two other students in a classroom. The students would get aggressive with me and approach me in an aggressive manner. I would have to ward them off. I didn’t recall any of this prior to remembering it in Hoboken. It was like a different world was revealed to me.

For some portion of time people in the past from what I was remembering would try to make me worried. People were talking about how since I didn’t have an income the police could get aggressive with me. It was a difficult time. I was worried at the time and didn’t realize that it didn’t matter if I had an income or not.

This continued for some time. I bought a few disposable phones then spent days getting rid of them.

Two fellow students that were brothers from my high school would appear in some of the memories. They would joke around with me. At one point they asked me if I had anything to say. I then revealed that they were both Kshatriya. Another thing that happened within the memories was I spent some time with an older girl from my high school. From what I remember in my normal life I had never spoke to her but in the memories I was remembering I was spending time with her. At one point I called this girl my wife.

There were other events I remembered. Here is one other important event I remembered. It happened during my first year of university. In one of the dormitories I remembered being in a room with two Muslim students in my year and one Jewish girl. How I ended up there was unclear. There was a long sequence of them insulting me and me responding to them. It was a tense situation. In addition to that in a separate memory I was in a room with a Christian student and the same Jewish girl and it was a similar situation. When I remembered this I was worried that it had happened. However I later remembered the same memory again and I saw the same two Muslim students however they were standing quietly in the corner. I was walking from one side of the room to the other. The disrespect that happened was revealed as a fake memory. With some of the things that happened earlier that I have not included that also included fake memories the idea that it is a fake memory is plausible. I also remembered a separate memory in high school of a few students in a classroom with me, and one of them pointing from one end of the room to the next to imprint in me the future action of walking from one side of the room to the next.

Another event I remembered happened while I was at my parents apartment around that same time. I was in a classroom. There were a large amount of students outside the classroom staring at me before I went in and waiting outside. Inside the classroom I was sitting near the back. There were two or three people in the classroom with me. One Christian student looked at me and started making odd facial movements such as grinning and sticking his tongue out. He apologized as he was doing this. At my parents time at the future time that I was remembering this I found myself making the same facial movements involuntarily. If I concentrated and out effort I could stop them however if I relaxed I found myself making the movements. It was as if the student was displaying to me how this type of imprinting worked.

Then it came to March 2022. I was still living in Hoboken. I was sitting in my apartment when these boxes appeared in my mind. Each of the boxes contained a memory and I could choose between which ones I wanted to see. This was truly astounding and was more significant than the memories I had seen up to this point. These memories I also didn’t remember prior to seeing them in Hoboken.

I will describe the different memories. In one memory I was in college lying down with a girl. I made a number of statements. I said the police will fade away in April 2022 or something along those lines. That did not end up happening l. I also said rape has been outlawed in America since 2014 or something along those lines. I made a few other important statements. Obviously the statements may not have came true, I may have had a different view of what was going to happen at that time. I also said one of my Dharma is to destroy Christian Programming.

In another memory I was sitting in a classroom when I was in elementary school looking at a room full of different students I knew. When I looked at each of them I would explain something about them. I looked at a Caucasian acquaintance of mine. I said he has information on Christianity. I looked at a girl I knew and said she has information on Choreography. I looked at another girl I knew and said she has Atman info and general info. I looked at a Sikh acquaintance of mine and said he is for help in fighting or something along those lines. There were a few other people as well.

In another memory I was in a cafeteria with a large group of people. I said I am the general leader in the area.

In another memory I was in elementary school conducting a march at the outside of my elementary school of people I knew.

I also was looking at memories of people such as my college roommates showing up at a time prior to when I had met them in my normal life. There were meetings in a middle school cafeteria where we were discussing things.

I continued to choose different memories to look at. There was a lot of time in high school and other times in the past speaking to people I know. However, after a few days, parts of the memories started turning black. The voices started getting distorted. Images of bugs started appearing in the memories when they weren’t actually there. This was the beginning of the haze. People insulted me constantly and showed me images of bugs. I believe in Indian universities it is called ragging. I lost control over choosing what memory to look at. This started in March 2022. At first I went around different times in the past where people I know would speak to me and insult me. They would joke around too. After some time I couldn’t see, but the memories in the past said they were in a place called Atman World in 1994. I was born in 1996. I believe this is a type of heaven. It seems like childish name but Atman World is what I called it. Different friends and acquaintances of mine would appear and haze me or basically talk to me for a while while insulting me. I would interrupt sometimes from the time in the past. It was revealed that the Christian Programmers were responsible for the hazing/ragging. They were also the ones that implemented the memory locks. The memory locks were responsible for all of the memories from the past that I remembered that I never remembered before. In the past I gave myself information by speaking. I told myself that in my previous lives I had fought against the Muslims and then the Christians. I said that I was there in the Hindu Kingdom in what is now present day Afghanistan. I also said I fought against the British colonizers during my previous life in India. I said that the British colonization was actually a religious war. I also said that I was there during the time of the Mahabharat and I was on the side of the Pandavas and fought against the Kauravas. I also mentioned I had a kingdom at the time. I also said during my previous life I was married to C. C was a girl I met in college once that I liked. She hazed me for some time in the time that I remembered. I also said I have an army. I also said my caste is Brahmin-Kshatriya and that has been my caste for a few lives now.

Getting information about my past lives and other such information was interesting however it soon ended. In June 2022 I stopped interrupting and the haze stopped moving around to different times. It became the same few people speaking to me constantly and showing me images such as bugs but also other random images as the situation arises. From June 2022 to the present day the haze has continued and I don’t see it ending anytime soon.

I messaged a few people on social media that I had seen at Hoboken when everything happened. One said they remember, however the rest denied or brushed aside seeing me or any knowledge of memory locks or something similar. I also went to see one person in person however nothing came out of it. For around 2 years I simply waited thinking the haze might end on its own. Then I decided to go back to Hoboken. I thought if I go there and walk around I could get everyone to show up again like the initial time. Then I could speak to my people and take action. I drove to Hoboken from my parents apartment a number of times starting in February 2024. The first week I went one of the girls I had seen at Hoboken when everything happened, and was the one with me in a past memory I remembered when I made the forward looking statements and was also in the classroom where each person had a purpose was there.

I went to Hoboken for around a month and then stopped. As of April 2024 I moved to west New Jersey. I noticed things happening at the shops around here. I started going to the shops in the hope that I could get everyone to show up again just like the time when I lived in Hoboken when people showed up as a result of me walking along the Main Street of Hoboken.

I started meditating around June 2024. I had been reading Hindu scriptures since 2022. However then I was reading the Yoga Vasishtha and it said something along the lines that moksha is not possible without the practice of yoga. This motivated me to read Patanjali yoga sutras and begin meditating. At first I meditated around 5 minutes then worked my way up to 1.5 - 2 hours. Then I began to fall back and meditated between 1-2 hours. At first I would keep my eyes closed and focus on the point between my eyebrows. However I found it difficult to locate that point sometimes with my eyes closed and I would spend time trying to fixate on that point. Then I started meditating with my eyes open and found it easier to concentrate. I simply try to focus on not thinking anything at all and keep my mind one-pointed. Sometimes I succeed at keeping my mind clear of thoughts for 15-30 seconds and occasionally up to a minute. It’s hard to approximate the time however I know it’s not 2 minutes or anything like that. I don’t see this amount of time increasing with practice. Maybe it will but it seems difficult. However I have noticed other potential progress. After a few weeks of meditations for 2 hours a day 5 days a week I began to feel a feeling sometimes when meditating that I had a light within me and that I was swimming in consciousness. However when I tried to focus on this feeling to discern how strong it was it doesn’t seem too strong.

About my practice of karma yoga. I go to the store multiple times a week in order to kickstart something similar to what happens when I was living in Hoboken. I try to keep my mind unnattached to the outcome of going to the store (which is everyone showing up again and making progress in terms of the impending conflict). I also work on staying even minded. I am not sure where to go from here and how to make progress in karma yoga.

I want to reach moksha. I want to be happy. I also want certain siddhis such as the memory of past lives. I believe people involved in my situation have certain siddhis. I can think of few other explanations for how they knew how to show up at exact corners and places where I was.

Namely the siddhis I believe people have are from Patanjali yoga sutras: 3.18 memory of past lives. 3.16 knowledge of the past and future. And 3.19 knowledge of another persons mind.

I particularly would like to attain memory of past lives for dharmic reasons. However moksha is also a goal of mine.

This has been a summary of my situation and my practice of yoga. I humbly approach you to see if you have any ideas on how I can continue on my practice of yoga and reach a higher state and attain more power over things. Also if you have any thoughts on my situation. In some of ---------------- articles I have read that self mastery is world mastery and that the more you practice self denial the more power you have over things. I am in need of this as everyone has shut me out yet I see indications of my people’s presence. If I had more power over things I would be able to make progress in this conflict.

I thank you for taking the time to read this. Memory locks are real. I also humbly ask that if you think memory locks are some sort of delusion or something similar to simply respond saying you don’t think you can help me. However if you believe you can work within this context please let me know.

Regards,

Kartik Saddi

Do you realize the importance of what was written in this letter? I talked about memory locks. Let’s say there are people in one town behind a memory lock, talking and acting. Can someone not inside the memory lock see them acting? Can some people be behind a memory lock and not others? Or is the whole world experiencing time behind the memory lock? I am not sure, however I believe this phenomenon is widespread, it’s just that most people don’t know about it yet. Just as I did not know about it for most of my life.

Certain groups of Christians, Jews, and Muslims are all culpable in what may be varying capacities in implementing the memory locks and in negative actions related to and behind the memory locks. They are also responsible, based on my information, for impressing certain negative thoughts, actions and behaviors onto people. I believe they are also responsible for impressing mild to medium medical ailments upon people.

In case anyone happens to think this is a localized phenomenon, limited to the town I grew up in. That is not the case. I did not mention certain meetings that happened behind the memory locks that I saw parts of that occurred in far off towns with many people. There were also some well known people (nationally and internationally) that showed up to my hometown during these times behind the memory locks that I saw parts of. Also the amount of people that showed up the Hoboken in my normal life that I described goes against the idea that it is a localized phenomenon.

This is not a call to divide people on racial lines. From what I can remember from behind the memory locks as well as from some of the people I saw when everything happened in Hoboken, there are a variety of races arrayed on my/our side. Black, White, Asian, Arab, Indian etc.; all sorts of people involved in copious numbers on my/our side. How can a person get access to memory that is stuck behind the memory locks? I don’t have all the information at this time; if I make progress with my spiritual practice I can come back and give more information. There are a lot of questions at this point in time. However I can give some advice based on how I got the limited access to my memory thus far. Also, before you go down this route, you should be warned it could take a turn for the worse like it did in my case with the hazing and the visions of bugs etc. However I have a special role to play in this situation so other people may not be targeted in the same way I was. Even with the risks, I believe it is important for this information to be made known. In the lead up to me getting my memory back, I became more even minded. Perhaps the strength of an even mind helps break the memory locks. I don’t believe you can get your memory back if you have personal hang ups which many people do. Even if you become more even minded there is a chance you won’t be able to unlock your memory. If I make more progress I can come back with more clarity and a guide on how one can regain their memory.

A few changes have happened in the few months since I wrote the letter above that started with “Dear Swami”. I have started working again. Not a job but on potential ideas for starting my own software business. I have also started learning Sanskrit.